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Turning 30

I'm turning 30 by the end of this month, probably the only age that I've ever look forward to. 
I mean, life is still totally terrifying, and my thirties will probably full of sorts of new exciting developments, like work challenges and marriage and kids and unpredictable situations, that will scare the shit out of me. But (hopefully) I'll never face the sheer terror I felt in those years right after graduation, when I constantly thought I might be the only person on this planet who was not going to figure life out of all.
But still, the older you get, the faster things start changing at the very rapid pace. So I want to start these posts where I go briefly over what my life is like at this moment of time. A way to document my life toward back and re-live how things were at this point of my life. 
This is for the start ... and this is me.

Recent posts

Post Umrah Blues

Now I know what the hype is all about.  Now I know what my mom and the people were talking about.  Yes, "It's gonna be the best trip of your life."

I really miss my beloved Kaaba.
When we were about to leave I had said, "I wish I could live here,
so that I can see Baitullah everyday."
And our guide responded, "There are many people living here
and don't even visit Kaaba once in a year. Let it live in your heart
and miss it. Missing is beautiful too"
May every Muslim in the world would be able to visit these holy cities.

Too Much Information / About Me 3.0

She is truly just a kid inside, it’s all about having fun.

She wants life to be filled with celebrations and adventures.

She ignores those who wants her and want those who ignore.

She is naturally blunt so that’s why she usually bring up things that people wouldn’t say.

Whenever she starts feeling spontaneous, her bank account quietly reminds her to calm the fuck down.

She doesn’t have time for any bullshit and she doesn’t want to be around it. Screw drama and be happy with life.

She likes attention but too much attention will make her irritated.

She seems cold-blooded on the surface but is extremely emotional underneath.

She would rather leave and lose you as a friend than risk being drowned by your drama.

When she doesn’t like somebody, she will waste no time telling that person that she is not interested.

She has a hard time committing but if she makes up her mind it will be for forever.

She is not heartless, she has just learned how to use her heart less.

She can be the sweetest …

Event / Self-Love Exercise x Hijup x Arisan Resik

Hi, semua! Selamat datang kembali ke blog saya yang sudah lama nggak diurus. Nguinggg ... *Sapaan terstandard tingkat dewa.

Seperti biasa saya mau curhat dikit nih *janji dikit doang, jangan kabur dulu plis, soalnya temanya cukup penting nih, meski klise, tapi penting. Penting, tapi klise. Halah :)))

Sebagai seorang manusia dewasa aka bukan remaja lagi, pernah nggak ngerasain level kepercayaan-dirimu jeblok?Trus bisa tiba-tiba melesat lagi, jeblok lagi, naik-turun, diaduk-aduk, terombang-ambing seperti saat kita naik wahana Kicir-kicir di Dufan. Saya sih iya, sering banget malah.

Kalau kepercayaan diri sedang jeblok, itu pertanda kalau saya sedang kesal sama diri saya sendiri. “Kayaknya kok bego banget ya saya”; “Ah, yakin deh pasti saya nggak bisa”; atau paling seringnya saya mikir, “Saya sih pake jelek segala.”

Why did you that to yourself, Nad? It's freaking abusive, you know. BUT WHYYY? I am sure there’s a problem with me. Let’s rewind this a bit. So you’ll get a better underst…

Recap Post / From Ghibli to Lucy